~Dreamgirl~

Today when I woke up, I was pleasantly surprised by an offline message from my sister asking me to go register for the Malaysian Dreamgirl event. Hmm.. I went to check it out immediately...Wah...me ar?(scratches head) Do you really think I can sis?? I know you do. Thank you for having so much faith in your jie jie. Me love you deep deep (muaxx). Even my sister had so much faith in me. Where has the faith and confidence in myself gone?

Malaysia is really following the footsteps of the West. First, Malaysian Idol and many more. Now even Malaysian Dreamgirl, which is basically the country's version of America's Next Top Model. I would have to register for an audition, then a closed audition where only 12 girls would be chosen and the whole once-in-a-lifetime experience. Or so they say. Oh, and the actual thing happens from March to May. Well, that is to near to my final exams hor? I start in June. What a great excuse for not participating ;-)

Only the bold and beautiful would be signing up for the event im sure. I do not even think I have the guts to be in the limelight 24/7, what more for 2 whole months, staying in the same place as 11 other girls. I have a mild psychiatric problem..social phobia. Basically, I get really scared when put face to face in front of a huge crowd of people , in this case..the whole of Malaysia probably...and im petrified at making a fool of myself. In front of everyone wor. How embarassing (blush) What if your voice cracks or there is some vegetables stuck in your teeth?

The judges said that its not about looks, it is all about the confidence. Something I still had to work on. And I don't believe that it is not about looks. It has always been about looks first. Anyway, at the end of the day, I don't think I will join lor. I just cannot bring myself to. I would rather spend the time doing something that does not involve self-consciousness, haha.

But the fact that my sister had so much faith in me from the start made me feel on top of the world and I felt that just based on the support I've gotten from her, I had won at least the first half of the battle. Sis, you really made my day today:-) Hugs

My sis and I at the foothills of Arthur's seat